Hi everyone I’d appreciate any advice. For so long I’ve been trying to figure out what emotions I’m suppressing and I had a thought come to me yesterday that I suppress any form of joy, happiness, any positive feeling I try to avoid. Could this be the reason for my pain??? I get major anxiety when trying to let go and be happy because every time in my life when I’ve had periods of actually enjoying life soon after something traumatic happened to me. I am so scared of good things because of this. I am a Christian and seek God daily for this issue as well. My mentality has always been if I stay emotionally down then when something happens it won’t shock me but I know I shouldn’t live this way. I really want to let go I just feel so stuck.