Hi guys. I'd love to share my story with you and hear your feedback. My pain started about 9 months ago. At the time, it has been two years since I started a new job (fresh out of college) - and I didn’t like it at all (to say the least). I had (and still have) a terrible boss - highly critical, childish and unprofessional. It was also one of the most stressful times of my life. Two weeks before my pain started, I moved from sitting with my colleague to sitting with my boss in the same room. I was miserable and felt like I should be someplace else, doing something else that suited me better, and wanted to work for a manager I would like and respect. When it started, I felt emotionally overwhelmed. It started “out of the blue” - a dull ache in my middle back. I thought it’s nothing and decided to give it a few days to go away. But it didn’t. And I got nervous, because it started right before a very important trip abroad - a special delegation from work to a remote village, where I was to live for three weeks. I was terrified something happened to my back. The pain grew stronger and I couldn’t sit in front of the computer. Every Time I stood up and walked, the pain would stop. It seemed like the only situation where it hurt was when I was sitting at my desk working. I thought it has something to do with ergonomics. I thought I had herniated disc. I was freaking out. But I had no choice but to fly abroad and hope for the best. And then, a miracle happened. A day or two after flying away, the pain disappeared. Nothing. Like it never happened in the first place. During that trip, I was sitting for long periods of time and working with my computer, but the pain didn’t come back. I thanked God and thought it was just stress and that I’m done with it. After a blessed month, I was back at work. And then, after about two days at work, my pain started again. I was angry and miserable and didn’t know what to do. I went to the doctor who said I have nothing wrong; he even refused to send me to MRI because he thought it would cause hysteria. I went to Physiotherapy and Acupuncture which helped a bit but not for long. I started swimming. I went to Osteopath. Didn’t help. I changed my chair and slept with no pillow and what not. Nothing helped. BTW - I ended up doing a CT that revealed nothing but a bulging disc in a place unrelated to my pain. I was healthy. One day I found Sarno’s book and the things he wrote resonated deeply with me. I’m an overachiever, perfectionist, worrier, anxious and emotional person. I fear criticism, I need to be perfect and in control, and I constantly think of “what can go wrong.” When someone says something to me that I don’t like, I think about it all day. Anyway, I decided to go to a TMS doctor who diagnosed me with TMS, and I started his 6-week program. It helped in a way, but the pain persisted. It never went away. It did change locations - from my back to my hips, to carpal tunnel syndrome, to headaches and even pain in my foot. I’m happy to say that today it’s just around my shoulders. I'm doing Dr. Schubiner's program now, and it helped too but my pain still lingers. Most of the time it feels like I have tight muscles in the shoulders, shoulder blades and in the chest. Somedays it's worse than others. At first, I couldn't sit for long periods of time and work or exercise. But today I can work and I'm fully active - I do yoga, I run, I lift weights. But somedays, even though the pain is not debilitating, it's just so annoying that it freaks me out. I JUST WANT IT TO BE GONE ALREADY. I know it has to do with stress. And emotions. When I'm in an uncomfortable situation - whether it's I'm cold, bored, annoyed, fighting with my husband, in a very noisy place - I feel my muscle tighten. I'm in the TMS business since June 17, and I don't know why I still struggle. It makes me doubt the diagnosis. I'm so into the TMS treatment I sometimes feel it's in itself overwhelming and time-consuming. I avoid any type of treatment, but sometimes really want to go to some kind of treatment that will release a bit of the tension in the shoulders. I meditate daily and journal and suppose to leave my job in a few month. I also use positive affirmations (which helped). BTW - my husband and I really want a baby and I'm delaying it because of TMS. I can't imagine how life would be when I have pain AND need to take care of a baby. I would love to hear your thoughts. Thanks and happy new year!!!