When I journal I'm supposed to write about life's stressors. And I have quite a few, no doubt about it. I've had several stresses in the past that coincided with the beginning of my chronic fatigue and infection state, and I have a classic TMS personality. That being said, the biggest stressor in my life are my symptoms. They're what make me feel depressed, they're what I worry about, they're what I cry over, they're what anger me like nothing else can in this world. They're what make every f*cking task in my life twice as difficult as it is for everyone else. I know, I'm not supposed to focus on my symptoms because that's what feeds them. But I also can't ignore them or pretend like they're not a big deal. They are. So when I'm writing about other "stresses" in my life, it feels like I'm being disingenuous because ultimately, anything I write about is a fraction of the stress that this syndrome takes out on me. Yeah, school is tough. Breakups affected me a lot. My parents fought when I was young. I have low self esteem, I'm anxious a lot, I aim to please others oftentimes at my own expense. I moved to another country at a young age and I didn't want to, then again as a teenager. I'm not negating the effect all this has, but nothing has ever come close to the trauma of going through this illness. Nothing has caused so much frustration and psychologic turmoil, tears, and screams of anger. Nothing has ever made me feel so alone and disconnected from others. I'm sure it's just a positive feedback loop at this point. Symptoms cause frustration, which causes more symptoms, which causes more frustration. So shouldn't I write about this? I've read so many books on TMS already and this has never been addressed. Dr. Sarno seems to explicitly advise against writing about symptoms. Any insight would be appreciated.