Day 1 My first step of starting SEP . Documenting everything below . Need some suggestions

Day 1

Response to Sarno’s Video :-

1. I feel hopefull after watching the video. Even though there’s still some kind of doubt, listening to Collins, Jeanie etc & reading the comments on the video I feel hopefull.


2. Could relate to the traits of keeping others happy & perfectionism. How it puts pressure on the brain & how its distracting me from the main problem.


3. Sometimes he would feel a tinge in the back but this time instead of observing or feeling for it he just says to himself “It is just a twinge and it will go after a while like it usually does”

Success Story BaseBall 65’s Story
→ Inspite of having so many diagnoses on his scan he could still recover and get back to his life completly.

→ I don’t even have any diagnosis like BaseBall65 has. Just some bulging discs which are normal part of ageing. I can absolutely heal.

→ Whenever I have doubt I will go through The Way Out / Healing Back Pain and reapply those principles.

“Insipite of the dire warnings / diagnoses. I now do whatever I want. Absolutely, positively No Pain”.

My thoughts

After my SPECT scan, 4 MRI’s, Nerve Conduction studies etc found nothing. This was the first evidence that I just have TMS/ Neuroplastic pains.

→ I still for some reason dont have 100% faith. But I’d say I have 70–80% belief that its just TMS. Because of the following reasons :

(i) My first episode of back pain started out of nowhere.

(ii) Inspite of no nerve compression, I have tingling which shifts from left to right leg. Another evidence.

(iii) I can sometimes exercise without difficulty but sitting just triggers my pains which does not make any logical sense.

(iv) I can relate to the traits of being a perfectionist / goodist.

Doubts / Worries :-

(i) Whenever I have a flare up / increase in pain my belief in TMS goes from 80% to 30 (or) 40%, as the pains feel so real.

(ii) There’s still some small doubt regarding trusting the process.

Question to Ponder :-

(i) Moving freely playing the sport I like, lifting heavy weights, sitting at my desk for hours without having to worry about aggravating my back pains. & going on trips with my family & friends.

 

You've got this! You do not have to have 100% belief in the beginning to start this program. Just give yourself grace and don't try to be a perfectionist as you go through this program.

 

But subconsciously I'm repating the pattern of perfectionism? How do I break free from that?

If I workout I want to do it intensely
If I sit and study I want to be able to sir for 7 hours a day
And when I can't accomplish them I feel guilty so I'm wondering how do I break this habit ?