Since today's question to ponder was about how this program is affecting my career, I thought I'd share this here, since I think that my job plays a great part in my TMS symptoms. I am a freelancer and over the last years I've built good relationships of trust with some clients. I value these relationships so much, that I hate to refuse jobs, even when I'm overloaded and feeling very demotivated. So I accept them anyway most of the times, and then have to deal with stress, anxiety and fear of not meeting the deadline, and of course aggravating symptoms... Since I discovered I had TMS I told my clients that I am taking less work for the moment due to health problems. Some empathized, but I am starting to feel that one particular major client is getting tired of my lack of flexibility. Unfortunately, I worry about this a lot. I keep reminding myself that some people will still keep asking the impossible of me, even if I try to accommodate their every need in every way, so might as well stick to my refusals and my reduced workload. Money thankfully is not a big issue - I would rather earn more and be less stressed on a day to day basis. At the same time I do fear losing all clients and becoming poor! I am also beginning to realize the rage stemming from my job. I get paid late, with some clients I cannot even set my own fees, and I don't get paid much for a professional - the market I work in is just like that - everyone is trying to save money on freelancers. If I refuse to do a job for an X amount, I shall be excluded and the job will be given to someone who accepts to work for pennies.... I am starting to wonder whether I should let it all go and look for another, totally different job. However, I know that it will be difficult since I am not experienced in any other industry and jobs are limited where I live. So I'm faced with this dilemma, of whether I should keep on doing my job, acknowledge the symptoms as TMS and try not to let it stress me so much, or whether it's time to forget it and turn over a new page completely - or at least keep trying to look for a job until I'm broke... Thanks to anyone taking the time to read this!