Hi everyone. I have not been on the forum in awhile, but I have learned a lot while I was away. Thanks to my TMS experience, I have beaten most of the back pain and various other chronic complaints like acid reflux and headaches. I now know what brings them on and am ever vigilant for the danger signs. Basically, whenever I begin to have the old familiar physical complaints, I know right away that I am not successfully processing my emotions. Whenever my mind races, I know that I am intellectualizing my response to certain specific emotions rather then feeling my feelings in my body, identifying the emotion giving me difficulty in the moment, and processing the emotion in a healthy way. To give an example, I just experienced a perfect recipe for the unwelcome return of a smorgasbord of all my former TMS complaints. I am having difficulty with some new tenants whom I really like a lot, but who came recently from the US to live here in Panama and do not speak the language or have any idea how difficult and inconvenient it can be living in a foreign country. I am really busy here myself and there is only so much of me to go around. They are very dependent and demanding. I have had to set firm boundaries (which I am not good at) and even speak rather sharply to them at times. I finally found someone they can hire to help them with all the things they need to do to get settled here because it was running me ragged. Of course I am not completely out of the loop yet, but this has taken the bulk of the pressure off. So I had to dust off my TMS knowledge to prevent another TMS sneak attack. And believe me, it was starting. I admit I am not good at processing my own emotions. It annoys me that I find it so difficult to do what other people find so easy and natural. So I am having a difficult time with that, but at least I managed to avoid the TMS pain and other symptoms. At least I have succeeded in transforming the physical anguish firmly back to the mental/emotional realm where it belongs. However, I am still having difficulty with sleep, not sleeping well at all. The last time I posted on the forum, I had just been diagnosed with SBD (Sleep Breathing Disorder) of unknown origin. For that, I started APAP therapy about 8 months ago. I just read a book about sleep that everyone on my CPAP forum is raving about called "Sound Sleep, Sound Mind". It is loaded with good information, well presented and precise, about CBT for treating chronic insomnia. This seems to be the only problem I have left, but it is a big one. Although I managed to avoid the TMS attacks, the sleep attacks of troubling and unprocessed emotion is giving me a lot more trouble. So that is what I am working on now. The APAP keeps my airway open and takes care of the physical issues. What I find so interesting is that emotional problems can actually cause nighttime physical breathing problems and experts find that 90% of people with chronic insomnia have sleep breathing problems. So I wanted to say hello to everyone.