Briefly write about how your personality affects your symptoms. How does your personality lead you to repress emotions moment-by-moment? What I hate most about myself is my cynicism, I hate hating myself, I am not disciplined, like today I forgot about a quiz in school today and I still did pretty well but really all I need is like an hour heads up and I can pretty much get it all right for small quizzes. But I didn't know because I don't check things, I don't plan anything, I don't make planners or anything like that. I have a running to-do-list that has no organization and I will forget it exists for a week. I don't have a procrastination problem for homework, but for things that take longer and have far away do dates I procrastinate really bad. This has led to many problems in my life. A big one is I can't figure out what I want to do with my life. This kills me because I end up doing nothing (that I care about), which is the worst possible option. This got a little off-topic. Kind of a ramble let me try to tie it to the prompt. Well right now I have back pain, not hand pain which is new for me. I am kind of lazy and sit in a chair a lot which seems to make my back hurt more sometimes. I think fear of not being able to do weightlifting (which is the main thing I am avoiding) is what is holding me back. I was finally on track, weightlifting consistently for months, and seeing improvement, and exercise is also a natural anti-depressant and I do think I have been more depressed and just angry and clouded and mad since I stopped exercising. I was also proving to myself that I could be disciplined. Now I have started to let other things in my life slip a bit. Pretty lame I don't really know what repressing emotions moment-by-moment means, I'm not sure that I do that.