I said to my husband yesterday, "All these years I thought I was so strong. Turns out I was just really good at repression." We laughed, but it's totally true. What I thought was "coping" was actually suppression. So now, my pain is better, more or less, comes and goes, and I'm dealing mostly with the day to day need for mindfulness, and to watch where my attention is. The fear/attention cycle is my nemesis right now, which I think is true for many when the pain starts to go away. We notice that it is going away, attention brings it back, we get scared, the pain increases, and so on. So I'm doing the last days of the SEP slowly, mostly doing other things, not focusing overly much on TMS, but being mindful, trying to stay active, be grateful, be happy.