I don’t think I am having much progress connecting my pain to my emotions. I make a story about it. This happened at this time and this is the pain that happened during this time. That is not really what I need to be concentrating on. I need to connect to the emotions. I need to fully feel those emotions in the body. I am so scared of feeling emotions right now. I have had a difficult time recently. I have depression and anxiety. And apparently they are all wrapped up together in this awful manic state. Up until recently I had meltdowns everyday, multiple times a day sometimes. Through some coping mechanisms and some changes to my medication I am doing better now. But I still have the occasional meltdowns. It is so hard just to try and get to the root of all of this because I worked so hard just to get stable. My defense mechanisms are working overtime to prevent me from feeling these feelings. I am very scared of falling apart again. How can I fully feel these scary emotions and still remain stable?