I have been feeling more motivated to get out and garden or go to the beach in the last week since I started the TMS course. AND I am feeling less pain. I am quite nervous to say these things because I don't want to get ahead of myself, I have had times before when I had brief relative wellness periods, so I don't want to get my hopes up too much. I've been hopeful, then had my hopes dashed so many times with treatments. Nevertheless, I can see the patterns emerging from the journalling, and can compassionately see how I could not let myself express these emotions at the time.