I have always been fairly aware of my baggage and which emotions trigger my fear. When I feel out of control, not good enough, unworthy, and worried that others don't like me, I usually start to suffer. In the past, my struggles were mostly emotional, with boughts of depression & anxiety, obsessive thinking and sleep disturbance. Just over the past year have I started having horrible physical pain, which I now know is TMS. Now that I am journaling, I am starting to see and feel some much deeper rooted emotions that drive who I am AND inhibit me. Before this process, I never journaled. As self-aware as I liked to think I was, journaling was never a comfortable option for me. Not sure if it is because I didn't want to dig that deep, or if I never gave myself the time because I always thought I needed to help everyone else first, before I even considered taking care of myself. I have come to realize over the past 8 days that I have a lot of deep anger and sadness. The sadness, in particular, has been tough for me to accept. But, I WILL NOT be deterred from finally giving myself the time and attention I deserve !!!