I don't talk much with my parents and I have a very complicated relationship with my dad. My mother is the one who was always there and I was very close to her, but she got sick and ended up in a nursing home. I'm trying to visit her once a week and we talk occasionally on the phone, but it makes me so sad. My father is back in my life after a decade and it's really weird I must admit. We talked briefly today but he was in a hurry. Every time a phone rings (if it's him or my brother) my stomach twists and it stresses me out. I know a have a people pleasing personality trait from him since I always tried to do my best even though he was never satisfied so when I have to talk to him it probably triggers my discomfort. Don't know how to beat that way of thinking.