I have noticed that my pain will vary and move around. Sometimes it's just an ache in my lower back and sometimes I feel sciatica nerve pain down my leg. Sometimes I feel tingling in my foot. Sometimes I get a headache. One time I even noticed a weird pain in my foot. And of course the neck pain. It will get better and worse. Sometimes I can turn my head to the left with very little trouble and sometimes I can hardly turn it at all. I am talking to it and telling it to go away but it doesn't work that well. So now I will try focusing on what I am feeling at the moment. I realize that I am whole bunch of insecurities wrapped up together and what I show to most people except my husband is a facade. Especially at work. If they knew what I went through as a kid they would be astonished. It embarrasses me and always has. I don't have a great family to speak of. My parents were lousy parents. I don't speak to my adopted sister at all and I haven't seen my adopted brother in 18 years. My husband is on disability for an anxiety disorder and I have to lie about that too. My life is a whole bunch of lies that I can't share with people. It's makes me insecure.