Doing this as an act of compliance with the day 1 excercises- not really my style to post something like this- in fact I've never posted in a discussion forum before. Totally willing to do it, it just feels so unnatural! As far as my level of acceptance of a TMS diagnosis (self-diagnosis) I would say that intellectually I'm on board, (100% on board that TMS is valid in general- and think it could/hopefully does/probably does apply to me.) Emotionally it's harder...I always have fear (especially with such a life ruining pain...vulvodynia) that the treatment I'm trying won't work. It doesn't help that in more than 13 years, not one thing I've tried has helped. It's probably a combination of personality traits, an effort to protect myself from unwarranted hope, and a dismal history (0% success rate with a myriad of treatments) that make it difficult to fully accept it emotionally. I know that belief is integral in this approach- so I'm basically trying to manually override all of the automatic doubts/fears as they crop up. I certainly have almost every if not every personality trait of a typical sufferer of TMS, and I have a traumatic history, so that's encouraging (in this context- surely not in general!) I guess that's all for day one...I feel super exposed, I'm so glad this is anonymous!