I am on day 4 but decided to come back and write my story. I had chronic back pain for 8 years, which started in 2004, over this time I spent thousands on physio and alternative treatments, I was told the only thing that would help was surgery, so glad I didn't go down that route. In 2012, I read 'Healing Back Pain' and discovered the TMS Wiki programme, both helped me to become pain free. It took about a year from first reading Dr Sarno's words and I have been mostly pain free since, if it has come back into my back or leg, I journal and it is gone within a few days. Today my TMS has come back, I have had sciatic and back pain for 6 weeks and it is not going anywhere. I can't work, I can't stand for more that a minute without excruciating pain in my leg. I have had a very stressful summer as I lost an aunt who I was very close to when I was younger and so I can see that because of this, and along with my unrelenting striving to be a better partner, a better mother, better at my job, have more money, more time, more energy, there has been a build up of tension and internal rage which has led to TMS. Unfortunately this time this knowledge is not easing the sciatic pain, I struggle to find exceptions to the pain because every time I stand for more than a minute it really hurts. Looking back over the last few years and re-reading 'The Mindbody Prescription' and 'The Divided Mind' I now realise that my gastritis and suspected ulcer were probably TMS, and the painful chest cramps which resulted in a trip to A&E in the middle of the night were probably TMS, and my knee pain which has stopped me running is probably TMS. At the time I didn't realise this so I didn't journal or release my emotions in anyway, so I think my TMS symptoms this time are not just due losing my very special aunt this summer, but also because of all my other stresses over the years. When I think about it there have been many more symptoms, and so maybe if I had journaled each time they appeared I wouldn't be in agony now. This leads me to question whether TMS ever really goes away?