So, like a bunch of other folks, I am jumping in. It's not my first time in the pool. I did a prior 30 day run and had some relief. But I don't think I fully bought into the TMS concept. I think I was half or 75% percent sure and I know that does not work. This time I am hoping for better. My story is this: way too much death around me for how old I am. In my 50's (where i still am), I have lost my wife, brother, his wife, and a close friend, all of whom were also in their 50s. My Dad is also dying and my Mom passed a while back. I feel like I have nothing left. I am sure this is causing quite stir in my subconscious with the resulting physical symptoms. I have been the classic TMSer my whole life, with symptoms that I now understand intellectually were generated by a process that began in my mind. I had the stomach issues for years, allergies, back pain, knee pain, plantar facitus, etc. I muscled through it all, basically not complaining but never really feeling well. I just kept going. When I first picked up Healing Back Pain last year I realized (again, intellectually) that there may be way to a better place. I realized that a variety of psychological factors were likely the source of my distress, not deadly disease, structural problems, etc. I have followed Dr. Sarno's advice and sought medical advice to make sure this is the case. I was recently experiencing numbness in my toes and hands and after freaking out that it was MS or ALS, I had all the required tests done and I am fine...from a structure standpoint. My neurologist was great. She actually explained in her words the mechanics of how rage and other emotional stress could be causing the nerve symptoms I am feeling. She was quite comforting. Still, I have a ways to go. The symptoms persist and I know that I have to do spelunking into my subconscious. I was hoping to send a canary down first but I think I need to do it. So here I go.