Hi All I was around on the forum a lot just over a year ago and almost got to the point of writing my success story, I was so much better. Anyhow, I've had a major relapse, so I'm starting again from the begining. I have no doubt that I'll be fine. I came such a long way before, I know what works for me, I just need to re-focus. I think the main thing that caused the relapse was my mum being diagnosed with Alzheimer's, and all the sadness and mixture of emotions it created. If I'm honest (as I must be to beat this again), the feeling causing the most rage is fear that it could happen to me and facing my own mortality. Also, because I felt so much better I planned quite a hectic summer for myself to make up for all the fun I'd missed, not realising that I still had some residual fear of getting sick again and ruining everything. I promptly self sabotaged and ruined two trips with migraine and panic attacks ! I'm reading all my TMS book again (I have a huge collection). I know I'll be fine I'm an old hand at this, I'm going to root out the last stubborn remains of TMS once and for all.