I'm just beginning my TMS journey. In 2002 I was diagnosed with Crohn's disease. I've dealt with pain associated with this disease off and on, escalating in severity in 2015. Near the end of 2016 I learned I had a perforated colon and had surgery in 2017 to remove and resect my colon. I had about 5 months pain free and woke up one morning, feeling like I slept wrong. From that moment, I feel like I've been in a downward spiral of back pain. After countless chiropractor, acupuncture and doctor visits (and all the tests that come with it), I learned I had 2 bulging discs that were "causing my pain" and they wanted to do surgery. I have declined surgery to this point and have been trying everything I could think of to stop/reverse the symptoms. Nothing has helped. My husband recently pointed out to me that, "isn't it strange how you finally get rid of one pain and almost immediately it pops up somewhere else?" My friend told me about the Dr. Sarno method and my husband did some research for me to point me in the direction of the Structured Education Program. I haven't even read Dr. Sarno's book yet...but am diving into this program. I am nervous and frankly, don't want to do this. I absolutely HATE journaling and in my head, just don't want bring out emotions/feelings that seem better left alone. But I'm tired of being in pain - I can't do ANYTHING! I'm frustrated and angry and pissed that this program seems to be my best chance of stopping this pain. I don't want to do it - everything in me resists (which is probably why I need it!). But I'm starting. I'm keeping an open mind. I'm going to do the work. I'm going to do the work. I'm going to do the work. I'M GOING TO DO THE WORK! Wish me luck!