Day 1 - 50-60 percent belief. I have read healing back pain, and I'm halfway through the divided mind. I have the personality traits listed in the books. I also had a crappy childhood and some bad life experiences. However by most people's account I would probably be viewed as "successful". 45 years old, great husband. Two great kids. Good job. Good friends. 17 years ago before getting married, I got some redness on my face-and the dermatologists diagnosed rosacea. I tried some prescription cream that made it worse so I left it alone and it resolved. In 2008 my father died. He was quite abusive and I felt torn about my sadness. I started getting migraines. I also started a new very stressful job with a lot of responsibility. In 2011 I was in an incredibly stressful situation at work that I couldn't even begin to describe as stuff like that only happens in movies. Again I got a red face and started suffering from migraines and anxiety. I saw a psychologist and was told I had situational anxiety and to quit my job. I quit my job and got another job that was less stressful but still at the level of responsibility I wanted. My anxiety went away and so did my red face but my migraines persisted. My doctor prescribed some medication for the migraines. That all worked sort of for 3 years. In the summer of 2014 while at the cottage "my face exploded in red". I started getting laser treatments that resolved it but then in December I was putting a roast in the oven and fell to the floor in agonizing pain. It got better over 2 months but then I arrived at work and fell to the floor in pain. I couldn't move my right leg. I went to emergency and had a mri that showed two herniated discs with nerve impingement on the sciatic nerve. My doctor didn't think I would recover but I recovered in 3 months. I couldn't work and I was constructively dismissed because of this while I was off on disability. I lost my self worth during this period as I was devasted that I could barely move, felt guilty I couldn't be a productive mom or wife. I was in fact now a burden on my family. I started another job and still had hip pain but could get by. In August 2016 while on a family vacation my back gave out again. I could still get by but then my husband bought a brand new luxury car and 2 days after getting it a transport truck backed up into us. We weren't hurt but I felt fearful as we were at a red light and couldn't back up as this transport truck started reversing into us. A couple of days later I was so twisted up and a ct scan showed a herniated disc with nerve impingement. I had bad sciatica in my right leg, hip and butt pain and bad bursitis in both hips. To date I have had physio, osteopath, laser, acupuncture, chiropractor. I have rejected cortisone injections. I do yoga daily and walk daily - between 7k -10k steps per my fit bit. I have changed to a non-inflammation diet - I have lost 10 lbs (although i am not overweight). It has been almost 3 months and I have had some improvement but not nearly where I need to be to function and have my life back. I am only working a couple a days a week from home as driving and sitting aggravates it. My physio indicated that he was surprised I could walk as I am so tight. But I continue to walk. The funny thing is walking is supposed to assist with the herniated disc but it makes my bursitis much worse. So I can't win. I read some blogs on back pain and about Dr. Sarno, so I was intrigued to learn more. My personality certainly fits.