I like continuing to think about past and current stressors and how to deal with them. My body does act up in about 10 different ways, but now I see the game we are playing. I always suspected the episodes I was incapacitated had a 100% emotional connection. Basically, I sensed that my body was saying "if you cannot walk and are in pain, you won't have to deal with this". Sad but true. A lot of concepts are falling into place as I work this program and read Sarno's book. I am being gentle on my body and choosing my activities carefully and based on my enjoyment level of it, rather than because it is a great workout. I still avoid things that place on my lower back, but do this with peace, not regret. I have also realized that living in a place with extreme athletes has placed a lot of pressure on me. I love to exercise, but at a pace I enjoy and can be efficient at. Finding my own voice in this uber active community has not been easy, but I am doing and no one cares after all. Everyone has a way to relax and some people need a 20 mile run, some need 30 min on the elliptical. We can all get out and move and enjoy it.