Yesterday I challenged myself to exercise. The push came from fate having me find some runners on the radio talking about the mental prep they go through as they are on the blocks. The focus. All about what they doing to get ready not to win but to run. It was perfect. I was scared, no question about it. I know the pain is not from any injury but I am still dealing with fear of the pain sensation itself as well as conditioning and expection of pain. As I went downstairs my pain kicked in and got worse. I decided to meditate to calm myself. After 15 minutes I put my sneakers back on. I kept it simple and light. I wasn't entirely without symptoms but they were very manageable or absent. I played music. My favorite was I Am Superman by REM. I counted each rep out loud and with an attitude "of I am strong. I have done this my whole life and I will do this again and nothing is going to stop me" I threw up my hands after almost every set like I had won and Olympic event. That's how I felt. I cried when I was done. I was so happy. I will do it again tomorrow.