Where to start?! In 17 days of doing the TMS s.e.p I have learnt so much about me, and my pain, and other people's journeys. I know now that there's a multitude of ways to end up with pain - and my chronic back pain is just one of them. I know I'm not alone. I have discovered my own people pleasing, perfectionism, worry, guilt, anxiety and anger. I am beginning to realise I can tweak these things. I have acted quite out of character and quit some voluntary work I was feeling responsible for and which I was far from happy about doing. I have opened up to allowing new experiences, like deciding to learn how to read music or going to bed early with no guilt. I am becoming a little bit more aware of my repetitive and often negative thoughts and I'm allowing them to go. I am also noticing there are times when I experience almost no pain. I have increased my walking by miles and there have been no ill effects. I know I can post to a supportive community, and have been very blessed to have had replies. Things seem so much more funny all of a sudden - like giggling with a colleague when we tried to cup hands to get some water at the fountain when there were no cups. I've also noticed that I don't wish to be defined by my pain any more - if I want, i can help a colleague move a table. I would still think twice, but I do it! Well, I'm not going to say "sorry" for all those I's and me's, if you read this far, I thank you.