Not sure where to go after this. Anyone worked with Monte Heftle (sp?)? My audition last night was pretty awful. MY hands shook badly as I held the sides and I couldn't remember some linesd I'd memorized. I saw another actor that they've worked with before and they kept him in there for a long time which means they weanted to see more of him. I was in and out. So that one doesn't look good. I'm in no way a perfectionist, in fact if anything I'm lazy and ok for things to be ok but not perfect. What I do know is my miserable self esteem makes me strive for people's approval and then my anger kind of leaks out in inappropriate ways.. Weird, huh?