Lately Ive been working on relaxation techniques to treat my anxiety and TMS. The past couple weeks I've been doing progressive muscle relaxation the most. I haven't been doing it as much as I should but I have been consistently doing it which is something I wasn't doing before. Its odd because I will have a better day and then the next day it will go back worse again. Then 2 days later I could have a better day and then not have another better day for a week and a half. It's completely random but I link these better days to a more relaxed mind and body. I just don't understand why TMS treatment isn't linear at all.. it seems completely random. You make progress and then it goes back and forth from there with no apparent reasoning. My goal is to do around 40 minutes of relaxation techniques every day. Right now Im at 20 minutes a day so I want to double that. I found this is helping more than anything else Ive been doing. I was journaling but that wasn't helping very much and constantly reading about TMS wasn't really helping a lot either because it kept me focused on the pain. Ive been trying to stay away from reading about TMS too much and just do the relaxation techniques. Lately Ive really been looking at the correlations between anxiety and TMS and I realize they are treated pretty much the same way. We all know anxiety is just like TMS in that it can produce physical symptoms in your body like muscle tension, aches, etc. and if you just treat the symptoms you won't get results which is why Im going after the anxiety instead. Also doing the progressive muscle relaxation, I can feel how tense my body really is... especially in my shoulders and calf muscles. My eyes also hurt quite a bit when I squeeze them tight and let go. When I let go of the tension, a rush of aching pain goes through and then dissipates from my eyes. Thats the only spot in my body this happens in. I've also been trying to incorporate deep breathing into my daily practices but I found that progressive relaxation helps keep me focused on what Im doing in the present so its a more mindful activity for me personally. I try not to get stuck on "why was yesterday better but today its worse again" type of deal but I just wonder why this happens. You would think there would be a consistent linear path of recovery where you start having better days and it progressively keeps getting better but that seems to not be the case with treating anxiety and TMS. I think its best that I stay confident and just keep pushing forward and doing more and more relaxation every day because I feel tense as hell. Lately I've also felt burned out.. the type of feeling where you dont want to do anything, the hobbies that you normally do aren't interesting to you, you just want to sit on the chair and not move. This started a month or two ago and I dont know why. I just feel strung out and burned out/tense most of the time.