Lots of regret at my past actions Feeling wronged or abandoned (and the anger that comes with it) Feeling misunderstood, misjudged, undervalued, or disrespected (and the anger that comes with it) I took a few days off of the program. I was beginning to feel overwhelmed by the constant emotional prying. But while I was taking a break and going about my life, I noticed an interesting pattern that I have that was kind of an a-ha moment. Whenever I am rehashing an old memory in my mind and it triggers a painful emotion, even for a split second, I will mutter, begin talking to myself, clear my throat, or something else. I also noticed that I can trigger an involuntary physical tic that I've had for most of my life (a shuddering of my neck and shoulders - how odd; those muscles are hard as rocks) by doing something akin to observing or feeling that unpleasant feeling. I also have begun to recognize the nature of my anxiety - with the help of a recent experience at a concert where I almost vomited for no apparent reason, another thing that has happened to me periodically for most of my life - It never manifests itself in a completely conscious way, and even if it does, I get so involved in it that I'm not really aware I'm experiencing it. So I have to work consciously at knowing when I enter situations that trigger these reactions, whatever they may be. No wonder I have pain. This is just what my mind does, all the time. It doesn't just manifest itself as pain.