Hello: If you were listening to the teleconference yesterday, you know I was there and talking with Alan. I appreciate that you were all patient and respectful. I had NO idea it would go on so long. But I'm grateful for the things Alan said. I've been "stuck" on two things he said. One: The "Bully" that is still inside and probably my mother's voice. How to get rid of that? I'm not sure. Two: He said I had a "flat affect" talking about my life. Flat? Really? Have I gotten so stuck in my ways that I can't "feel" anymore? I did have an ache in my heart for awhile. Maybe I'm not dead after all. I think it is a way of defending myself. "Be brave Annie. Don't let on how hard this is!" But thankyou all. I started to feel like there were more people with questions and I took up a lot of Alan's time. I am grateful to Alan and to all of you who were so patient.