Hi! I´m a 33 year old woman from Sweden who slowly starts to realize that I have TMS, this is my first post here. I´m very excited about this, to me, new approach to pain and trying to learn everything about it, although I can´t find anything in Swedish. This forum and John Sarnos books are my lectures, and I´m especially grateful to all you who write here! What an amazing well of information and support! I have pretty severe pain in all my upper body, going on my fifth year of pain (a sad, sad insight). It started 5 months after my little brother died after many years of sickness, of course a very stressful period, in addition to a load of emotional luggage from before. The pain is there almost every day, escalating as the day goes by and depending on how much activity I do. No doctor has been able to help me that much. At this day I manage to work 50-75 %, working my way up from almost zero hours about a year ago. Many days when I get home from work I´m in so much pain that I hardly can cook my own dinner, let alone do some evening activities. I´ve been doing meditation for 2 months now and really believes that that is one of the keys. Discovered Sarno about a week ago and have ordered most of his books. This feels like my final hope, what if it doesn´t work? What if, what if… I will do everything I can, cause I can´t bear the thought of this being what the rest of my life would be like. This is my day 1 of the program.