So i was at work last night and the pain was a lil worse than it has been since starting the program and i have up until now been really good with thinkin ok whats goin on around am i stressed or angry or am i comfortable in my current situation but some stupid reason last night i didnt take that road i freaked out and was like man this is never gonna go away and he we go again and even hit up google which was something i stopped months ago cause it made me pesimistic all the timewhich google is great for! lol My hardest thing to achieve with this program is that i cant stop thinking ok so when is the pain gonna start subsiding and if it doesnt i question the whole approach and then roller coaster ride starts all over again. As the night went on it got more sore to the point where i was just disheartened ad fed up! I woke up this morning and am in better spirits and the pain is a bit better. I had a very powerful unwritten letter today as part of my program that i wrote to my spouse that really made me think what the hell am i doing or what am i thinking. Its quite scary actually but good to get it out on paper. Today is a new day and i will keep on with my work and continue to think right!