I used Dr Sarno's book to help relieve pain in my sacrum with good results. Now I find myself at home sobbing from prostatitis that is not resolving. I have been at a new job for a month and don't yet have any benefits, cash is very low and I am spending $545.00 a month for COBRA. I called in sick today even without sick leave. Have have been trying to step Into the position as the perfect worker and want my boss and coworkers to approve of me. I don't eat well and when I do eat at work I work while I eat. I am so afraid of letting down people at work and absolutely fear not being able to pro ide for my spouse who is the greatest thing in my life. I fear going to work and failing, and fear being a failure to my spouse. I have compassion for others but not myself. I left my past job after going through hell with the sacral pain which I believe developed beause I felt I was failing at that job. I see history repeating itself. I am very afraid of facing my shortcomings and fears. I don't know why I am so very afraid it.