I have made some progress in my journey but I am still a little bit skeptical because in the past I have had progress which turned out to be temporary. I still believe generally speaking in the TMS approach and my resolve grows each day I continue doing the Structured Educational Program and associated journaling. I am also seeing a therapist but she is not versed in TMS (all therapists should be IMO). My symptoms get markedly worse whenever I read and do journaling on TMS. Yesterday during a meditation, I felt blood flow return to my pelvic floor and had improved symptoms throughout the day. It was an amazing feeling being back in touch with my pelvic floor. I am starting to notice the psychological patterns across past experiences that build up to TMS. I am having some great moments wherein I totally forget about my symptoms. I am also starting to notice poor mental habits in dealing with prior and current experiences as they arise in the mind. After a great day yesterday in terms of symptoms, I woke up today with intense anxiety. I know I can still do much to relieve myself of the anxiety by, for example, seeing a TMS physician and officially ruling out what other doctors already have.