I am so upset and crying. I am in such bad pain I can barely type. Since I started this program, I have been getting much worse. I journal and I hurt more and more. I talk out my feelings and my whole back spasms and I can't do this program any more. I would rather live with a little pain than go through the agonies I am going through now. I can barely get out of bed anymore. I am just meant to be in pain forever. Maybe I am being punished for something. For not being as perfect as I've always tried to be.