Wow. How a few days can change everything. When I first read the TMS book by Dr. Sarno, I had the same reaction many of you have described; I cried, and I saw myself on every page. My symptoms were a little different- not really back pain, but a pressure in my low back & abdomen that if ignored, caused me to lose control of my legs. As I read the book, the symptoms became worse but I saw that as a sign that I had TMS on the run. When I was hospitalized at the beginning of this month and had several MRI’s, my back only showed up with 2 bulging disks and a little arthritis. That became more evidence that the condition was TMS. Yahoo! But something else showed up too. I have a uterus full of fibroid tumors. When the pain became intense yesterday, I went back to the ER. They did an ultrasound of my uterus and found “extreme” fibroids both inside and outside of my uterus. My uterus was swollen beyond the maximum size parameters for a uterus. The weight of my uterus is comparable to that of a third trimester pregnancy. The doctor who treated me and read the ultrasound said that she “can’t imagine what I’ve been going through” and when I asked her if the fibroids could be responsible for my lack of mobility she said, “Absolutely”. Since I don’t have health insurance or a lot of cash, today I begin the process of applying for a county medical card. When I drop the application off, I have the option of making an appointment to see a doctor. I’m going to do that with the nicest form of pushy that I can manage. I want surgery, and I want it this week. I want to walk without a walker. I want to walk my dogs when I move to NY in April (they won’t have a fenced in yard anymore). I want to ride bikes with my grandkids. I want to go for a walk without a cane or walker and go further than the curb. I want to feel younger than 85 (I’m 52). I want to feel slightly normal. Whatever it is that you do to send good mojo to people, please take a moment and do it for me. Light a candle, say a prayer, send good thoughts. This place where I drop off the application opens at 9 AM. I’ll be there by 9:15. Approval for the card takes 2 weeks, but it’s effective the date you apply (not sure I understand all this, but I’m going to work it for all I’m worth). Thank-you.