I just found out a friend of mine had some heart surgery. He’s probably going to be fine but no one wants to go through that regardless of age. He told me he had been thinking about death. I told him that was nonesense and that he would bounce back in no time. Inside I felt some kind of...worry or fear or preoccupation. I am worried about him a little. It also stirred up some old health anxiety. Along side of that we celebrated a birthday. I ate a little too much and then came the cake. I haven’t indulged in years. I thought I would. 3/4 though the cake I got some mild cramping that moved around and afterward pain in my right side. So immediately my brain says it’s probably my gallbladder. I think logically, prior to this I had side pain for almost 1.5 years. Should I even be concerned, considering my history with TMS specifically in those areas? It pretty much felt identical to this turned out to be nothing. Then back pain starts and on and off right side pain coming and going and back pain. Based on my past with TMS and my fear of medical procedures in general I’m going to assume this is probably TMS. I suppose it’s time to gather evidence. Two days ago I had some iffy Mexican food that was greasy. No pain. Back pain comes and goes even when fasting and definitely has an emotional charge. Coincidence that my friend had a medical procedure and this bitter sweet situation of a birthday and the news of my friend in the hospital? TMS seems to be winning this case.