Hi, my dear friends, I could use some encouragement. I need something to hold onto from your encouraging, brillant words. I will give you a little background. I was having sciatica and some buttock tightness but that was getting better this past summer. I was delighted to say the least. I was not pain or discomfort free but it was manageable. Then, in October I started getting intense pain so I went to a TMS doctor who was wonderful and confirmed I had TMS. Since, I started seeing him and started really talking to my brain as he suggested my pains intensified then they started to move around. I stayed calm and continued. Then, the symptoms totally changed from legs and buttock to severe muscle tightening in my neck. This felt much worse. Then with the muscle tightening I had pain and burning on one side of my neck. I felt like this was the area of my neck being deprived of oxygen. When I went back to the doctor he thought this was wonderful to get my symptoms to change after only a month. I wish I had his enthusiasm. I believe the neck symptoms started at the same time both by college age students moved out of the house in October and my husband just started traveling to work. With these new neck symptoms, I have not been driving and had to take some time off of work. I don't mind staying home but not driving is very confining. I am trying to go with the flow and just be thankful, I got those symptoms to move. I figure it started in the legs moved to the buttock and now it is in the neck. I guess it is moving on out of my body. Hah!!! Yesterday, I started journaling and doing Unlearn Your Pain program (Dr. Schubiner). I found the journaling really helped; something I have not been doing. I am going to continue it I was so motivated, I went on four separate drives in the neighborhood. They were small drives but I had very little pain in my neck and I was like a little kid behind the wheel. I was so happy; feeling like I am getting my life back the way it was this summer. I even decided to go to the movies at night which was not so easy. I had pain in neck while I sat as a passenger in the car and had pain in the movies but after about 15 minutes the pain left and I so enjoyed the movie. I felt so empowered, then this morning I woke up and anxiety and fear tried to grip me. Anxiety is something new. It really tried to discouraged me and the pain in my neck was intense. I stayed up for a while then I decided to go back to bed, do some deep breathing, talk to my self and got my body relaxed. I just got so discouraged, though. I think the fear and anxiety took me by surprise. I did attempt to go for a walk and with a little pain in my leg was able to walk about six long blocks. I was so thankful to get outside in the fresh air. I am also going to take a little drive soon. If anyone can give me some encouraging words, I would so appreciate it. Just writing this I feel is so therapeutic. Sorry, it is so long. Love my Friends on the Wiki, G.R.