Hi guys Need to get this of my chest. The following would be about my fears and the pain I've had..I know that the following is going to sound weird.. I'm a sensitive guy, and even the smallest things gets to me. When I first had my pain I assumed that was it; I wont be working anymore, I wont be able to finish my studies, and I'll propably end up on the streets living in a box.. All that I've worked for was just a waste of time, and there I was lying down, crying and being frustrated. I mean it was ridiculous and I was a mess. I didnt want the world to be a better place, and I just wanted to inflict everyone in my pain. Whenever I saw someone walking around I envied them. I was so jealous of them, and kept thinking that I was cursed. It got even weirder, when I started to think about the people that I may have hurt in the past. Could they have casted a spell upon me? Propably not, but I tried to rationalize my pain in every possible way.. I feared, that I couldnt change my life, and I felt that my plan for the future was falling apart. The frustration rose to a new level, and I was getting suicidal. I wanted to end my life. No one understood me, and I was alone on this God forsaken planet. So why not just end things? If I'm going to suffer, and to be a disappointment, why not leave everything behind? Whats the point? I mean; I'm suffering, and doing no good anyway. Death was the easy solution, and seemed to be less painfull than being alive. So I took the last step. I tried to end my life. I really did. But I couldnt. Something inside me kept me from doing it, and two weeks ago I discovered what it was thanks to this website..I have something inside me, that loves life. Deep down I knew, that I was going to be better, and the TMS concept proved me right. Right now I'm back in school, and I work again. I still have some pain occasionally, but I've regained my previous happiness. I KNOW that I will be fine! God bless you all!