Hi all – thought I might take a step out into the TMS community and put my story out for all to read and *hopefully* comment on! I was recently (let’s say early April) given the book by Dr Sarno called Healing Back Pain by my chiropractor (funnily enough) who thought I might get something out of the book given the pain I’m currently experiencing.. he had just been given it by another of his patients to read. Wow, like most people I found myself in this book without a doubt. I actually finished it off in 2 days which is amazing, because I really really dislike reading books. I must say I did enjoy reading the book. My “medical” history is as follows – I’m currently suffering from pretty severe burning pain in my right upper leg with quite a bit of pins and needles/numbness in my right foot due to, apparently, a herniated disc at L5/S1. This current episode started in January and started out somewhat slowly and progressed to a stage where I was in bed for most of February unable to really move. I actually had experienced pain in 2008 from a herniated disc at the same location and ended up in hospital where I received a steroid injection which numbed my pain. The neurosurgeon at the time refused to operate because of my age then (27) and the risks involved. Fast forward to March this year when I visited him again after seeing new MRI scans and he wanted to operate on me by the end of that week as the scans looked terrible. The MRI for all I know could have looked identical to the MRI I had in 2008. After reading HBP I wondered if my pain had returned to an old site of pain, because it knew what to expect and how I would react to it. I decided not to rush into surgery and went back to my chiropractor who advised me of the outcome/success of conservative care versus surgery so I decided to take the conservative approach and see how I go. I also went off and had another steroid injection in L5/S1 however this time with no effect what so ever (what I now know to have been an amazing placebo the first time I had the injection in 2008, didn’t work this time round at all !!) After 6 or so weeks of chiropractic care I had full movement again in my back, but absolutely no improvement in the burning pain in my leg. Laying down I was able to raise both my legs to 90 degrees which I don’t think I've ever been able to do. Interesting note about my current pain - I can sit and lay down with no problems at all, sit all day if I want to, but the moment I have to stand up for more than 5 minutes the pain kicks in and becomes unbearable, to the point I’ll just sit on the ground if I have to. What I also know now is I am *expecting* this pain to kick in, and when I stand up I actually am mentally waiting for it to start for some stupid reason – it’s almost like I’m surprised if it doesn't start hurting. Then it starts. On top of the back pain I have pretty bad left shoulder pain, and have done for about 18 months. I’ve been told I require an operation due to AC Joint/Rotator cuff problems. The funny story with that is 2 years ago I had right shoulder problems, they injected me with cortisone in that shoulder and then it’s like the pain went straight from the right to left shoulder. At the time I thought it was weird, but just put it down to bad form at the gym. Where I am at today – well I’ve been reading about TMS pretty much every day for the last month and, I’m almost convinced I have TMS (yes I know for this to work I need to be 100% convinced I have TMS). Yesterday I put on an audio tape of one Sarno’s books and managed to stand up for 1 hour straight and move around – no matter what the pain was I wasn't going to sit down. Somehow I’m still alive to write this post! I wish I was one of those lucky few who were “cured” after reading one book, but oh well… I’ll get there. Whilst I may not be convinced of TMS – I am 100% convinced I am NOT having a discectomy to fix my “problem”! On a side note - I had a conversation with my chiropractor at the end of last year when I was feeling the best I had in my life (I was at the gym 4 times a week and playing sport every other day.. I felt better at 32 than I did 22) – I said now my back feels amazing should I have an MRI to see if there’s any problems with it I didn't know about. His response was “what’s the point in doing that, if you feel great then you are great. There’s plenty of people walking around with herniated discs that don’t even know it!” At the time I didn't even really absorb what he said and just thought “whatever” and moved on. I’m sure I've missed a few bits of my story out here and there, but I just wanted to get the ball rolling by starting to put my story down.. I've never really written about anything like this before… maybe I can say this is my first step towards doing journals too! Sorry for the long post!