Yesterday was Day 13, and my journaling ended up being very intense. I've been pretty depressed, despite summer sunshine, and it all crashed in on me as I journaled. It was a horrible meltdown with a lot of anger at myself. But even in the midst of the worst of it, I thought, "This is just more TMS. It's coming out as depression and it's trying to scare me and derail me from looking at deep stuff." So I turned to some comforting reading that calmed me and helped me feel compassion for myself. Today, I feel much better emotionally. Even though I had some bad pain this morning, I gently kept going, it passed, and I had a good day. This evening I actually wanted to take a walk! It's still 90 degrees at 8:30, so I guess I'll just walk around my air conditioned house. Today, day 14, was supposed to be a day off "me day", but I didn't get to do that, so I will give myself tomorrow instead.