I hope you guys aren't getting tired of seeing my name popping up everywhere... I am just totally excited to be working toward healing and I want to absorb every bit of information I can! I tried the spider journalling technique and I guess my subconscious likes it! Tonight I started with a personality trait "dependent" and I realized that I actually really want a relationship and I want to be taken care of (while simultaneously not wanting to be taken care of), but I fear a relationship AND I do not want to outwardly admit that I want one. I like identifying with being a strong, independent woman who doesn't need a man. So internal tension is generated by holding both these dichotomous feelings at once, I think. Now, what to do with this insight?!