How do you move through repressed emotions when you don't have any idea what they are? I started noticing that my response (to myself) to things like the "questions to ponder" in the SEP seems to be "I don't know". Recently I took an emotional intelligence test and scored a 56 out of 100 (which is not good). This morning I decided to look back at my journal entries to see if I can make heads or tails of what even one of my core issues might be. What I'm realizing is that I don't seem to write about actual feelings very often, and if I do they're feelings in the past tense. My entries read more like news reports, situational details - that sort of thing. I've read The Mindbody Prescription, I'm reading Healing Back Pain now. I plan to read The Divided Mind next. I'm on day 20 of the SEP and my pain is not as severe as it was a month ago but this same pattern happened last year at this time (had no idea about TMS then). The pain got really bad in October, stayed that way for awhile, then started getting better late December. My doctor was actually the one to recognize the pattern and suggest there may be an emotional component, which is how I ended up finding this website (which is great BTW). Additionally, I have struggled with anxiety and depression throughout most of my life. It seems I am very disconnected from my emotions. The last thing I want to be good at is repressing, but it looks to me as if I may be an expert at it, How am I ever going to get rid of this physical pain if I can't make an emotional connection with myself?