When I was 6 years old I was up on stage with a dozen of my classmates preparing for a play. A teacher pointed me out on stage saying "you, the girl in the red sweater." I must have been joking and giggling. I immediately stopped and froze. I was mortified that attention was drawn to me doing something bad. I was singled out from all the other students on the stage. I no longer blended into the group. This is the first time I remember wanting to be invisible. I didn't want to be great at something and I didn't want to be bad. I just wanted to disappear in among the others. I have wanted to be invisible all my life.....umh. It seems like a contradiction because some things I am very very good at doing, for example, presenting on a particular topic I have an expertise in. But I know I feel that I don't want to draw attention to myself. I never wore that red sweater again.