Well its going to be slightly long winded but I need to let it out so here goes. Things had been going extremely well since I started the program, until yesterday when I decided to let a friend come over before this guitar clinic last night. We hung out and it was fun for a bit. I know he has TMS cause he takes medication for his anxiety and although he is a really awesome guy and super friendly i couldn't stop judging him or something... I don't know hes a close friend of mine yet.... then I got into deep thought about TMS i.e do I need alone time, am I expecting to much of myself as his friend etc. we started practicing guitar together and I found it frustrating cause I couldn't practice the normal way I usually would which made it challenging and i was getting annoyed and quiet but at the same time not showing it I was being friendly etc. Anyways it came to the end of the night and I was like aight I'm going to do my TMS journal....then it was like oh boom day off I'll watch the video in the morning. So I watch it and Forest says yes it is possible to over work the Structured Educational Program (something I had been wondering myself). then for a good part of the day I was feeling rather uncomfortable in my own head compared to usual. I was giving my mind minimal comfort (caring phrases, hugs and kisses etc) AND IT JUST KINDA FELT LIKE CRAP. Compared to the first week where i was being so kind to myself today was not the greatest. I guess after being told that yes you can over work the program I thought hmm maybe I'm over working it a bit (cause i think about it very often) then doubt entered my mind and I ended up having a bit of cruddy day... don't get me wrong it wasn't that bad just not as good as the others. Anyways I think I'm going to go back to giving myself comfort etc? Its hard not to think about whether or not the way that way that you are treating your TMS ( i.e the way you think ) is right or wrong or to care less about treating your TMS.