Day 4: What Doctors Said

Things doctors said have definitely influenced my thinking and behavior around this experience. Here’s what’s stuck:

- “There’s so much we don’t know about the brain” (Me interpreting as: “ We don’t know what’s wrong with you, you’ll always be stuck.”)

- “You have general anxiety disorder (GAD).” (Me: “Oh god. I have anxiety disorder.”)

- “You have depression as a result of your GAD.” (Me: “Oh god. I have depression and am always going to feel this way. I can’t live like this.” Starts antidepressant. Goes off antidepressant after 6 months.)

- “If it was just anxiety, what’s causing you stress would’ve come up by now.” (Me: I must have something physical wrong with me.” Starts hypothyroid medication)

My symptoms aren’t musculoskeletal-related pain, they’re brain fog, dizziness and throat pressure.

Ack!

 

thank you for posting. i am on day four today . i was told I had GAD depression and so on too. Then i got buried in medications that repressed my emotions and here i am with pain. I hope you do well today and on your journey.

 

I can SO relate to that first one (almost word for word!).

I have vertigo and dizziness symptoms, and have heard so many conflicting diagnoses and ideas in the last year and a half, which like you have taken me in one direction, and then another. It's been a wild ride. Coming to the point where I accept the TMS diagnosis hasn't been easy, and if I'm honest there's still a bit of my mind that's holding out, thinking there is something structural wrong with me. But we're on the right path here with TMS and ready for deeper learning