I really don't fit the description of goodiest or perfectionist. When I start something I do want to do it perfect but if I can't I don't mind. Since I was a small kid, I was the youngest of 5, I was on my own. I was expected to be independent and not bother anybody, which I did. I became early on very responsible and independent. I was always aware of not bothering people, not being a nuisance. My mother was done with mothering us when I was 4, she said that after 10 years of taking care of us is was her turn. She was there but more like a friend and did not bother much with mothering issues. My sisters kind of helped me because I could be very messy and they felt sorry for me. I started school at 4 years old and had to struggle through school and catch up with older kids. My Mom did not want me to wonder throughout my neighborhood (which I loved to do) so young. She did not expect me to pass, but I felt obliged to do it and I wanted to. I would say my strongest personality trait is to want to do everything alone, do as much as I can, never ask for help and not be a nuisance. I am not a goodiest, I don't let people take advantage of me and I have no problem saying no, so I can only think that because of my alone and independent attitude I am overwhelmed and my unconsciousness has avoided expressing rage towards the people that abandoned me or hurt me. I love my Mom and I have forgiven her, she has always been nice to me and I don't think she intended to hurt me, but I was only a kind and I deserved better. That still leaves me with doubts. I don't see me fitting in the typical personality traits of Dr. Sarno's analysis.