Just being on this site for a couple weeks has already helped me a lot with decreasing some of my pain and i hope that i have the confidence in myself to Know that it will all work out. i think the biggest thing for me is the fear. i know im afraid of the pain and i need to work on that. im also afraid to ignore the pain, i don't know why but i am.. i also have compulsions to crack my back and stretch because i think it feels good but its becoming like OCD. i know i need to stop that but my body and mind make me think that its good to do that, although i really know its not. im probably use to where the pain is and i think i can tame it and probably let it stay there, because im afraid of it moving around to my ribs or other areas of my back back where it can become more uncontrollable. im also worried that what if this program doesn't work. Will i have pain forever?. These are thoughts that pop up in my head. im 35 and I know that i have TMS as it has been with me since i was a freshman in college. At the time i did not know about TMS, but it was at that time that my cycle of daily pains started. ive had daily pains from that time on with many different body parts until now. numerous MRIS, Scopes, and evaluations with mostly nothing to be found. At any given time i have had shoulder pain ,back pain,stomach pain, wrist pain, leg pain, burning with urination, sensitive teeth and itching all over. it sounds funny when i write about because i know that its not due to anything but there is probably something that is holding me back. i guess fear is the biggest one, negativity, lack of confidence and other things that im going to learn while going through this program. i went to see Dr Ira Rashbaum in NYU like 7 years ago and he told me i had tms. At that time i guess i needed more then a Drs diagnosis so it did not help. The back pain transitioned into all the other different problems i mentioned above. At my best i would have minor shoulder pain, leg pain, colds and itching, but would have extreme fear of those getting worse. That all changed when i lifted someone and my dailly back pain started again. so its been about 2.5 years of daily back pain. i went to Dr ira Rashbaum recently again and worked through Dr Harold Schubiners online program as well. They were both great and informative but for some reason only helped me minimally. So luckily i found this site and im finally ready and willing to do whatever it takes to win and beat this thing. I have read the many pages on this site so far and they have been extremely helpful and helped decrease some pain. Im looking forward to completing this program and taking my life back.