I went for a walk in the country yesterday as I committed to doing the day before. It was enjoyable and the increase in the pain in my knees was minimal. As the day progressed doubts kept coming into my mind but I did not Let them run away with themselves. In the evening my knees became red and slightly swollen, this is common but again I just tried to ignore it. I would like to share a bit about me. I had a pretty normal childhood in a London living with my mum, dad and elder sister. Although I would say it was happy I was quite a fearful child. When was 17 I had a car accident that resulted in both myself and a close friend being injured. It was entirely my fault I was being stupid and the result injured us both. I had not pain symptoms up to this point in my life. About 7 months later my back started to hurt for no apparent reason. After about 18 month of no relief from this I was told I had hyper mobility syndrome and this caused the pain in my back. Don't worry they said just get on with it. I am now 48 and get on with it is what I have done. I have had an ok life and have made the best of things however my symptoms have steady grown. Painful knees, shoulder, elbow, frequent urination, tinitus. These are never dreadful enough to stop me completely but they have totally controlled my life. As I said in my last post I have given up all activity that has no real purpose e.g exercise. I have been aware for a while that my symptoms basically control my life. There appears to be an internal governor inside me saying what I can an cannot do. Ride a bike no your hip and knees will hurt. Dig a trench for a new water pipe, yes you can do that today no pain. Go for a walk in the evening and my knees will almost certain hurt and swell. Even before reading about TMS I knew this was being controlled from within but the issue I have is the seed given to me that as the doctors said year ago I have hyper mobility, that I read as being a weak body and this in fact is the reason I have so much pain in my joints. Onwards with the programme Day 4.