Hey Guys! I am so glad that I found this wiki and forum. My name is Alexandr and I'm Russian. I am sure my story will sound pretty much familiar here, but anyways I will post it Seven years ago, when I was 21, out of the blue my back started to hurt... Whatever treatment I followed didn't help me at all or at most gave me a temporal relief. I was diagnosed with degenerative process in the spine, hernias, mild scoliosis, etc. Initially my pain had a tendency to change its position: low back, thoracic region and neck an throughout the day it could rise from low back up to neck. Sometimes I had signs of sciatica as well. When I started working the pain increased substantially so at times I could hardly sit and concentrate on the work. I had to take several sick leaves from work, but resting in bed didn't seem to help. By now the picture has slightly changed: sometimes I have pain in the back and sometimes due to cholecystitis. They were so intertwined that occasionally it was difficult to say where was the pain - in the back or stomach. I had a treatment of mild stomach ulcers which eradicated HP but the pain persisted. The pain gets especially strong when I sit for a long time at the desk or in front of the computer, so I tried to avoid sitting as much as possible. A couple of weeks ago I stumbled upon Sarno's book, read it and found many correlations with my history. Starting from the personality traits such as perfectionist, over conscientious and often a worrier... I had a tendency to generate a lot of anger in everyday life, but I kept suppressing it. Now I read all of the Sarno's last 3 books and studied the tms wiki. I am very thankful to all the people who contributed to the wiki as the material I found there allowed me to understand my real issues and suggested how can I cope with them. I started the structural program, read a lot of material on TMS, success stories, started using affirmations, self talk, journaling. I've ordered the Dr. Schubiner's book and will try to follow the program described in it. In general I feel better now. I completely accept that my problems are caused by emotional factors. Consequently, I stopped any physical treatment and exercises intended to strengthen by back. I started jogging almost every day and I have no back pain doing this. However, I still have back pain when I sit... I think this is a conditioned response, what do you think guys? I am trying to unlearn it, using affirmations. Thank you guys, you did such a great work! I am sure you helped a lot of people with psychosomatic illnesses, because the educational material plays a crucial role in the recovery.