Perhaps like some of you, I find myself reading, learning, and posting on this forum when I am in terrible pain, and then disappearing back to my private life when all is well. So now I am in terrible neck and shoulder pain, and I am back on the forum, feeling guilty that I have not been able to break the TMS cycle. And perhaps that is the point: when we build up rage in our subconscious, it's sort of like water filling up in a basement. You can ignore it for so long, but eventually, it requires attention. And if the underlying rage factors remain, then how would the cycle not continue? Thank God for Dr. Sarno's wonderful insights, because it has prevented so many of us from seeking unnecessary surgeries. But I guess my learning from this painful round of TMS is that the rage continues to build in my own subconscious basement. Do any of you feel this way? Are any of you feeling frustrated that one round of TMS seems to inevitably lead to a later acute relapse, perhaps in a different pain location, and on and on? I sure do wish - as I lie here virtually immobilized on the couch - that there was a way to make the principles of healing TMS stick. I wish to God I could break the cycle, which for me, is about five years.